October: In Silence and Chill

sugar-skull-cross-848x1000Most of us, at some point, while the  computer sops up all ten thousand years of grace to install updates,have gotten the prompt, “you must reboot your computer to complete this change”. There is a certain point in the process of  making life changes intended to be permanent that there must be silence and chill:life reboot. It’s the time our friends suddenly lose track of us: we don’t call for a couple of weeks; we don’t update the blog; we don’t answer the phone. Truth is we’re in the “hard labor” part of making a change so profound and pervasive that it affects the entire life operating system forever. Other examples of this: one day you’re single. The next day, you’re staring at the body lying next to you and wondering, “what have I done?!” One day you’re “just me”. The next day you’re “mami”. Between the “then” and the “now” is “the space of change”– the darkness and chill; the unconsciousness/black screen of reboot necessary for the decision made to change becomes permanent.

In the beginning of the life’s autumn, human beings begin the active, visible, handleable (read, reversible if I get scared) states of change. Loosing 5 pounds and the new toupee are part of this early stage of life metamorphosis. Then comes October’s end: the unconscious stage of the change where the old form disintegrates and the new form takes its place…

…Suddenly, the caterpillar could not take another bite. She took a big breath and her skin split down the back like a zipper on an outgrown dress. Beneath was a glistening new skin, just the same, but different. She could hardly move in it. “Ah!, the butterfly said, “now, it’s time to cocoon. When you’re inside, the magic of butterfly happens”…

It is in the period of “unconsciousness”, in silence, darkness and chill, that we grow wings.

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